ahh! my entry screwd up, lemme try this again. i hav GOT TO do this b4 i regret it for the rest of my life. there are so many people i owe apologies to. ya. first i wana clear up wut has been buggin me for a while. eric'z bday. i wana kno if he knew i chipped in. i still have no idea, after a month, what he got, n i culd care less now, what happened after the diploma wen he went out with the ottewells and the londonderries. even tho i wuz not told. all my info source comes frum jeff indirectly. he doesn kno it, but he'z tellin me this stuff off his msn space. no one to blame there. i *heard* frum his msn space, something of the same sort happened again on cynthia'z bday. ok. ya. i wuznt informed again. thank you so much. n tiff did call me on..tues? i think. awsum. but wateva, im not here to complain abt that. im here cuz i owe sum ppl apologiez.
Hey Helen. i kno. we used to be close friendz, but, after going into high school, we're not anymore that close anymore. we barely talk to each other. ever wonder what happened? my fault. i guess im still a lil guilty abt dat may-split-pop-on-helens-grad-dress thing. itz hard to forget that wen i still keep rmbrin u cryin? n bein realli fustrated in da washroom. TOTALLY NOT YOUR FAULT. anyone wuld be fustrated in a situation liek that. but seein i wuz da blame, whether now u say u did or i did, n not bein able to go nethin abt it, im still guilty of that crime. i wuzn sure if u were still mad at me. n cuz, we werent realli in classes together in gr 10, i guess we jus drifted. im not sure if that can be helped. if there's anythin i can do abt our frienship now, i wuld do it. uve been there for me so much as i went thru junior high, and i'd liek to say thnx. but da onli thing i culd ask u for now, is forgiveness.
Helen, I'm Sorry.
Hey Eeffae. ive been doin it a lot, cuz itz jus a feelin i get. i didn wan da frienship btwn me n u to end up liek helenz. but my mistake is, i cant compare ppl. u n helen cannot be compared. wat happenz btwn me n her, n me n u, are strictly different.
Eeffae, I'm Sorry.
Hey Angela. i still rmbr dat arguement. u mite wana kno why. itz cuz i think ure realli rite. i do hav a childish temper, and i do get ppl annoyed at me easily. at first, i thot u were wrong, n i guess i wuz mad at u for a while. but i realize da truth in those wordz. im not sure if it affected our frienship in anyway, but sumtimez, frienshipz are startin to feel a lil different for me. uve seem my tears, n ure alwayz there to ask if im ok. if our frienship somehow accidently shatters bcuz of my childish behavious,
Angela, I'm Sorry.
Hey Kathie. i kno we kinda jus bcame closer frienz, but da base of our frienship frum gr 5 cant be forgotten. im sorri dat i involved u in sum of my problems that i shuldn hav pulled u in. liek da one btwn me n angela n da one btwn me n my family.
Kathie, I'm Sorry.
Hey Sarah. i kno it seem liek ive kinda been rejectin it every time u tried to care for me. but sumtimez itz jus so hard for me to say stuff frum my heart.. cuz ive alwayz tried to hide it.
Sarah, I'm Sorry.
Hey Jeff. cant forget u. thnx for talkin to me those so many times on msn. even though u may not hav known it, u didn help me too. even tho we havn talked much except for da last 2 yrz, i think uve done a great job as a frien. even tho i havn realli been doin my part all that much.
Jeff, I'm Sorry.
Hey Sophia. i dont know if u'll read this. but u can say im a lil selfish n a lil siu hei. i still keep rmbrin u talkin bhind my bak in front of my face. i guess im at fault. cuz if i had no faultz, u wuldn hav nethin to say. then again. no one is perfect. im still not sure what ive done to offend u, if i hav in anyway.
Sophia, I'm Sorry.
Hey Chong. i cant forget you. there were times i thought u were too dependent on me for hmwk, n i found u annoyin. it wuz onli bcuz i culdn concentrate, n my own problemz were gettin to me. im jus as dependent as u in other wayz, but im startin to learn to become less dependent. if there'z nethin u need help for. im still here for u. n one last thing too, Chong, I'm Sorry.
I'm not sure if you believe me, but all my apologiez here are sincere from my heart. jus bcuz i havn written an apology for u, doesn mean im not at fault for sumthin to u. some people say it takes a lot of courage to say sorry. but to say sorry and mean it, has a totally different meaning. I know writein out all this that i feel might be risking my frienship for quite a few people, but i think itz worth it. before one day, i hav to come n regret it for not spendin 30 minz to write it all out n tryin to piece together my frienshipz. if this causes me to never be able to talk to you ever again, id jus liek u to keep this in mind. i still care for u.
- May
